Famous Self-Harmers

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Famous Self-Harmers + Their stories *TRIGGER WARNING*

1. Johnny Depp

Actor | Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street

Johnny Depp is perhaps one of the most versatile actors of his day and age in Hollywood.

He was born John Christopher Depp II in Owensboro, Kentucky, on June 9, 1963, to Betty Sue (Wells), who worked as a waitress, and John Christopher Depp, a civil engineer.

Depp was raised in Florida. He dropped ...

In a 1999 Avantgarde interview Johnny said, “As a teenager I was so insecure. I was the type of guy that never fitted in because he never dared to choose. I was convinced I had absolutely no talent at all. For nothing. And that thought took away all my ambition too.” Even today he still has feelings of insecurity about himself. In 1999 he said, “My self-image it still isn’t that alright. No matter how famous I am, no matter how many people go to see my movies, I still have the idea that I’m that pale no-hoper that I used to be. A pale no-hoper that happens to be a little lucky now. Tomorrow it’ll be all over, then I’ll have to go back to selling pens again.” During his teens he had drinking, smoking and doing drugs. There were episodes of petty theft and vandalism. He dropped out of high school at the age of sixteen so that he could concentrate on being a musician. He continued to have problems with drugs and drinking into his twenties.

Johnny has a series of seven or eight scars on his left forearm where he has cut himself with a knife on different occasions to commemorate various moments or rights of passage in his life. Johnny explains his self-harm, “My body is a journal in a way. It’s like what sailors used to do, where every tattoo meant something, a specific time in your life when you make a mark on yourself, whether you do it yourself with a knife or with a professional tattoo artist.”

Johnny Depp has quit doing drugs and no longer drinks heavily.

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2. Drew Barrymore

Producer | Never Been Kissed

Since melting audiences' hearts - at the age of six - in Steven Spielberg's beloved sci-fi blockbuster, E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial (1982), Drew Barrymore has emerged as one of the most endearing and talented actresses of her generation.

Drew Blyth Barrymore was born in Culver City, California, to ...

Drew was three years old when she first met her father and he threw her against a wall in an alcoholic rage. Drew talks about her father, "I really love him. I hated him while I was growing up. But now that I've grown up, I do love him. For a crazy person he's the most intelligent, fascinating man I've ever met, but he is crazy. Omygod, he's insane!"

She got her start into acting and self-harm after her role in E.T. She first got drunk at age nine, smoked marijuana at age ten, and snorted cocaine at age twelve. She tried to commit suicide at age thirteen by slashing her wrists with a butcher knife. After that all-time low she entered rehab, not for the first time, but that stay was successful.

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3. Angelina Jolie

Actress | Maleficent

Angelina Jolie is an Academy Award-winning actress who rose to fame after her role in Girl, Interrupted (1999), playing the title role in the "Lara Croft" blockbuster movies, as well as Mr. & Mrs. Smith (2005), Wanted (2008), Salt (2010) and Maleficent (2014). Off-screen, Jolie has become ...

In June 2001 Rolling Stone she said that during her very early teens she started “thinking about not wanting to be around. It was when the reality of life set in, the reality of surviving.” Also, Angelina used to hurt herself during her early teens but stopped around the age of sixteen. She explained in a 2000 Maxim article, “You’re young, you’re crazy, you’re in bed and you’ve got knives. So sh*t happens.” But in 1999 Access Hollywood interview she explained it more in-depth, “I was..trying to feel something….I was looking at different things..thinking romantically about…about blood. I really hurt myself,” and, “I was nearly in the hospital. I nearly cut my jugular vein.” She also said in the same interview, “I was just….a kid. I was like 13, And, I was saying that it is not something that is cool. Its not cool. And I understand that it is a cry for help…”

Angelina Jolie no longer hurts herself. Article and interviews indicate that she is a much happier and more content individual than she was earlier in her life.

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4. Emilie Autumn

Soundtrack | The Devil's Carnival

Born and raised in Malibu, California, Emilie Autumn began learning the violin at the age of four and left regular school five years later with the goal of becoming a world-class violinist. Progressing to writing her own music, she studied under various teachers and went to Indiana University, ...

The violinist best known for her Opheliac album and her autobiographical novel, “The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls,” which is a detailed account of bipolar disorder and the modern day psych ward in which she stayed after a suicide attempt. She compares and contrasts the modern day ward with the Victorian insane asylums. The chapters of the diary are culled directly from her own diary. One chapter of the novel is called “Cutting Diary” and contains several pictures of self-injury and an account of dealing with self-injury that alternates between handwriting and type. The words written underneath the chapter title are “Why am I not ashamed?”

Emilie, even if not ashamed of her past with self-injury, does not advocate it. Her novel comes complete with a trigger warning saying, “This story is not meant to educate and entertain. The author does not advocate suicide or self-harm of any kind in any way whatsoever. If you are suffering from a mental illness and require counseling, please contact a certified professional. If you feel that you are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency hotline.”

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5. Megan Fox

Actress | Transformers

Megan Denise Green (née Fox; born March 16, 1986) is an American actress and model. Megan was born in Oak Ridge, Tennessee to Gloria Darlene Cisson, a real estate manager and Franklin Thomas Fox, a parole officer; she was raised in Rockwood, Tennessee during her early childhood. She began her ...

She revealed in a Rolling Stone interview in 2009 that she used to cut herself but she downplayed is as a “phase”. In the interview she said, “Yeah,[…] but I don’t want to elaborate. I would never call myself a cutter. Girls go through different phases when they’re growing up, when they’re miserable and do different things, whether it’s an eating disorder or they dabble in cutting.” When asked if she’d ever had an eating disorder her non-answer was, “If I did talk about it, I’d be taking on a role-model status, and I’d have to choose my words very carefully, and I’d have to make sure I reveal it in a specific way, and I don’t want to do it.”

In the same interview she talked about her low self-esteem, saying, “I’m really insecure about everything […] I never think I’m worthy of anything… I have a sick feeling of being mocked all the time. I have a lot of self-loathing. […] Self-loathing doesn’t keep me from being happy. But that doesn’t mean I don’t struggle. I am very vulnerable. But I can be aggressive, hurtful, domineering and selfish, too. I’m emotionally unpredictable and all over the place. I’m a control freak.”

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6. Demi Lovato

Soundtrack | Camp Rock

Born in 1992 in Albuquerque, New Mexico, Demi Lovato started out as a child actor on Barney & Friends. In 2007, Demi Lovato got a part on a short Disney Channel show called As the Bell Rings, and then she landed the starring role of the movie Camp Rock. While filming Camp Rock, Demi Lovato began ...

In an interview with Ellen Degeneres Demi talked about her experiences with bullying in the 7th grade after becoming a target of a “hate petition.” Demi says of this time, “I went through a really hard time at school with girls bullying me. I blamed it on myself at the time, but looking back I guess it was out of jealousy.” The bullying seems to have been the catalyst leading to her problems with self-injury and an eating disorder.

On November 1, 2010, Demi entered inpatient treatment for what was said to be an eating disorder and self-injury, according to People. In late January, 2011 she left treatment.

On April 19, 2011 Demi opened up in an ABC News interview. She revealed that she had had an unhealthy relationship with food since she was young, beginning with compulsive overeating at eight years old. The bullying during her early teens turned the overeating into bulimia, which alternated with severe restricting. ”I developed an eating disorder, and that’s kind of what I’ve been dealing with ever since,” she said. Her family was aware of her issues with the eating disorder from early on but unaware that she had, at age eleven, begun cutting her wrists as a way to cope with her feelings. “It was a way of expressing my own shame, of myself, on my own body,” she told ABC News. “I was matching the inside to the outside. And there were some times where my emotions were just so built up, I didn’t know what to do. The only way that I could get instant gratification was through an immediate release on myself.”

Demi says treatment changed her life and that she relearned how to feel and picked up new, positive ways of coping. ”The real reason why I’m sitting down with you,” she said in the interview, “is to open up the eyes of so many young girls, that it doesn’t have to be this way.”

She says that the self harm scars from cutting are like ‘beautiful battle wounds‘ and the tattoos she uses to cover them remind her of how far she has come.

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7. Marilyn Manson

Soundtrack | Detroit Rock City

Marilyn Manson was born Brian Hugh Warner on January 5, 1969 in Canton, Ohio, to Barbara Jo (Wyer) and Hugh Angus Warner. He has German and English ancestry. During his childhood, one of his neighbors molested him several times until the young Brian broke down one day and told his mother what ...

Manson described himself as an adolescent “worm” with no self-esteem, surrounded by a dysfunctional family and hypocritical, emotionally abusive peers at school and church. As a teenager, Manson stole, and later experimented with black magic, drugs and rock music. Later, after he had formed his band, he would perform bizarre on-stage antics, abused drugs, self-injured, and did other self-destructive things. Manson first cut himself when he was in the ninth grade during a class, he dug into his forearms with a penknife.

In a 1998 Rolling Stone interview he answered some questions regarding his self-injury, both onstage and offstage. About self-injury he said, “I think that’s all a form of wanting to let go, of wanting to get out,” and, “It’s not something easily described or understood.” About the differences between his onstage self-injury and offstage self-injury he said, “I think onstage it was more me trying to show people my pain, and offstage it was just feeling it, period.”

In a 1998 Jane interview he said, “I would put myself through a lot of physical pain with drugs or masochistic behavior. And that was something that transformed me, really. I find myself being a different person. Yet no therapy was involved. I’ve tried a couple of times, but I find that self-examination works better for me than trying to explain it to someone else.”

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8. Christina Ricci

Actress | Casper

Precocious, outspoken child-teen starlet of the 1990s, Christina Ricci was born in 1980 in Santa Monica, California, the youngest of four children of Sarah (Murdoch), a realtor, and Ralph Ricci, a lawyer and therapist. She is of Italian (from her paternal grandfather), Irish, and Scots-Irish ...

Christina Ricci, an actress since childhood, was born in Santa Monica, California to a lawyer-psychiatrist father and real estate agent mother in 1980. Her parents divorced when she was thirteen. Christina, a compulsive talker and smoker, is known for her outspokenness on a large number of controversial topics.

In a US magazine interview Christina explained a small, smile-shaped scar on her hand. “I was trying to impress Gaby [Hoffmann, her best friend]. So I heated up a lighter and pressed it on my hand.” She revealed other burn scars on her arms and said, “I wanted to see if I can handle pain. It’s sort of an experiment to see if I can handle pain.” In a SPIN magazine interview she revealed that she sometimes would put out cigarettes out on her arms. When asked if it hurts she replied, “No. You get this endorphin rush. You can actually faint from pain. It takes a second, a little sting, and then it’s like you really don’t feel anything. It’s calming actually.” In a 1998 Rolling Stone interview she explained where each scar came from. When she was angry about “not looking very good” Christina heated up a lighter and held it to her hand to impress some boys. Scratches on her forearms came from fingernails and soda tops. She explained, “It’s like having a drink. But it’s quicker. You know how your brain shuts down from pain? The pain would be so bad, it would force my body to slow down, and I wouldn’t be as anxious. It made me calm.” Christina also developed anorexia when she was fourteen but has since recovered. In a 1999 Mademoiselle interview she said, “In a way, I was trying to get rid of my breasts. Everyone my age wanted them, so it was like, whoo-ooo. Then I started hating them. And for all of my movies, I was supposed to be younger, so I’d have to strap them down.”

When looking back on her self-injury the same interview Christina said, “when I was younger, I did self-mutilate. I’d be upset, so I’d do it, and it would calm me down. It’s a horrible way to feel better. But there are two parts of your brain- one that really wants to destroy the other. And sometimes the idea of self-destruction is very romantic. I got over that.”

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9. Colin Farrell

Actor | The Lobster

Colin Farrell is one of Ireland's biggest stars in Hollywood and abroad. His film presence has been filled with memorable roles that range from an inwardly tortured hit man, to an adventurous explorer, a determined-but-failing writer, and the greatest military leader in history.

Farrell was born on ...

At age thirteen he had already been drinking and he has described two drinking episodes that resulted in vomiting and “the spins.” He smoked his first spliff when he was fifteen and first took Ecstasy when he was sixteen. That was the start in experimenting with other drugs. He would lock the door of his bedroom and he would do speed, coke, ecstasy, or whatever other drug he had.

As a teenager Colin tried to get into the entertainment world. He signed up for a local modeling agency and got small bits on television. One part was modeling a G-string on Irish television. He volunteered because, “That was a pill, you know. Two pills if you’re buying off the right person…” Colin and a friend later tried to get to America but were unable to so they opted for Australia. He got his first role in a play but returned to Ireland only ten months into his stay. After his return from Australia he was drifting and was completely depressed. Later on he would feel that this difficulty was self-created. He stopped talking to siblings and eventually had a sort of breakdown in front of his mother. A doctor told him he had to stop the drugs so he stopped both the drugs and drinking at that time. The doctor put him on Librium and some Antabuse pills that would make him sick if he drank. He stopped drinking for eleven months.

In GQ Colin said of himself, “I’m a hair puller-outer.” When he was thirteen or fourteen he tugged out the whole part of hair near his forehead, strand by strand. “What do you call it? Trichomania or something. There is some generic psychological term for it. I loved the sensation.” He liked the little jabs of pain of the hair as it was pulled out. “Yeah, the little sensation. Just, yeah… right before it’s left the follicle, right - that moment, right before it’s left. And then the… duuukkkk. I just love it.”

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10. Courtney Love

Actress | The People vs. Larry Flynt

The daughter of Grateful Dead devotee and first manager Hank Harrison and psychotherapist Linda Caroll, Courtney Love was born Courtney Michelle Harrison in San Francisco, California in 1964. Love spent her early years living in hippie communes in Oregon and at schools in Europe and New Zealand, ...

Her parents, who have been living a hippie lifestyle, bitterly divorced when Courtney was only five. As a child she was diagnosed as being autistic and went to therapy for several years. She went wild during her teenage years and was expelled from school at the age of fourteen for drinking alcohol, had many conflicts with teachers and had several minor shoplifting offenses. At the age of sixteen she dropped out of high school. Courtney formed her band, Hole, in 1989 with her friend, Eric Erlandsen. She married Kurt Cobain, the lead singer for Nirvana, in early 1992. Kurt killed himself in 1994.

Courtney went through a period of self-injury; she would cut herself on stage.” While talking about Kurt’s overdoses in a 1995 SPIN interview she said, “Some people OD. I’ve never ODed, ever. I’ve gotten really blasto, but instead of ODing, I chatter and start talking too much, screaming and running around naked and getting hysterical, cutting my arms, you know, crazy sh*t Breaking windows. But I never have fallen on the floor blue.”

She said in a 2000 SPIN interview, “I have many [self-destructive bones], and I’ve broken a bunch. I think self-destructiveness is given a really bad rap. I think that self-destructiveness can also mean self-reflection, can mean poetic sensibility, it can mean empathy, it can mean a hedonism and a libertarianism and a lack of judgement.”

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11. Mia Tyler

Actress | Rush Hour 3

A daughter of Aerosmith lead singer Steven Tyler, Mia Tyler is a paternal sister of Liv Tyler, Chelsea Tallarico, and Taj Tallarico are again from a different mother but same father. Like her sister Liv, she started out as a model and eventually became an actress.

Mia began cutting herself in her mid-teens, first with a makeup compact, then with knives and razors. She said in a September 2008 People article, “It’s about finding a friend. I could always rely on cocaine and the same thing goes for cutting….You want to find that first initial high. You’re in love with your addictions, and they can’t say no to you. So you have to find out how to say no to them.” In a September 5, 2008 blog post on her Myspace she said, “It is a drug in its own right. I always say I am a recovering addict… I fight it on a daily basis. I’m not hurting like I used to when I was cutting all the time. But it never goes away. Cutting was my best friend when I felt alone. I never had to answer to it… It made me feel good when I couldn’t make myself better.”

She also began to use drugs, starting with marijuana, then moving to ecstasy and acid. In 1998 her father sent her to rehab after she called him whilst on drugs. After rehab she began to work as a pluz-size models and became a success.

She said in the same 2008 People article, ”I still think about cutting. I was in a dark place, but I’m on the other side of the looking glass now. I feel like a kid again.”

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12. Amy Winehouse

Soundtrack | Amy

Amy Jade Winehouse was born on September 14, 1983 in Southgate, London, England to Janis Holly Collins (previously: Janis Holly Winehouse; born: Janis Holly Seaton), a pharmacist & Mitchell "Mitch" Winehouse, a taxi driver. Her family shared her love of theater and music. Amy was brought up on jazz...

Winehouse had bulimia and had struggled with it since she had been a teenager and had also been known to take a series of hard drugs. In October 2006 she told the Daily Mirror that she had had “a little bit of anorexia, a little bit of bulimia. I’m not totally okay now, but I don’t think any woman is and most men will agree.” In a September 2007 article she was reported to have said she had been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder but refused to take medication.

On August 23, 2007 Winehouse was seen stumbling the streets with her husband; she was bloody and bruised. It was reported she told blogger, Perez Hilton, “I was cutting myself after he found me in our room about to do drugs with a call girl and rightly said I wasn’t good enough for him. I lost it and he saved my life.”

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13. Darrell Hammond

Actor | Blues Brothers 2000

Comedian Darrell Hammond was born in Melbourne, Florida, to Margaret Evelyn (Helms) and Max Carey Hammond. A Saturday Night Live (1975) cast member from 1995 to 2009 - the longest tenure of any SNL cast member - Hammond was one of the sketch TV show's strongest and funniest performers. As well as ...

He was brutally abused by his mother through stabbings, beatings, and electric shocks throughout his childhood. This led to severe mental health issues, including self-injury. He revealed in the interview that he began to self-injure at the age of nineteen. The diagnoses thrown at him varied and included schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. He was put on sometimes up to seven medications at once which he says were “soul-killing” but also says that they gave him stability.

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14. Fiona Apple

Soundtrack | Pleasantville

Daughter of former singer Diane McAfee and actor Brandon Maggart. She was classically trained as a pianist as a child and began composing songs when she was eight years old. She crafted a demo tape while in Los Angeles finishing High School. When she returned home to New York for Christmas one of ...

Fiona Apple was raped outside of her mother’s apartment at the age of twelve. For years after her rape she would check her closets to make sure no one was hiding in the house and would be nervous around older men. And she still continues to have bad, violent dreams. During her teens and the months she spent making her album, Tidal, she suffered with an eating disorder.

When Fiona read her first bad review for Tidal she began scratching her left wrist with the fingernails of her right hand. She scratched all the way up her arm, there are still some dark patches on her wrists, where she dug the deepest. Fiona said, “I have a little bit of a problem with that. It’s a common thing.” When asked if it made her feel better she simply replied, “It just makes you feel.” Fiona also sometimes bites her lips as hard as she can, sometimes until they bleed. “And it’ll be bleeding, and I can’t stop, because it almost feels so good when I bite my lip.” Trying to explain her actions she said, “It was never, like, ‘I am going to hurt myself and put myself in the hospital.’ …It is that I am going to give myself the pain that I need to feel to put the punctuation on this sh*t that’s going inside.”

Fiona would get frustrated and sad when she feel that people think she’s “crazy.” She says, “The most annoying thing for me to hear about myself is that I’m trying to make people have a pity party for me. Everything that I’ve gone through has been dramatized by the people who’ve written about it, not by me. I’m just saying, ‘This happened to me, this happened to a lot of people.’ Why should I hide sh*t? Why does that give people a bad opinion of me? It’s a reality. A lot of people do it. Courtney Love pulled me aside at a party and showed me her marks.”

Fiona Apple has become a happier and more confident individual since she talked so frankly about her past self-injury and eating disorder to Rolling Stone. Articles in several magazines and newspapers, including The Washington Post and USA Today, mention different new aspects of Fiona, such as her new take on life, a healthy weight gain and a new-found confidence in herself and her music. In a USA Today interview she said still gets upset when she reads a particularly bad article about herself or review of her music but does not mention any further self-injurious behavior as a result.

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15. Princess Diana

Self | Gala Performance

Diana was born July 1, 1961 at 7:45pm weighing 7lb 12oz at Park House, Sandringham, Norfolk, England. She had her christening at Sandringham Church in Norfolk. Her full name is Lady Diana Frances Spencer. On July 29, 1981 she married her Prince Charming - Prince Charles of Wales, the eldest son of ...

Diana’s parents divorced when she was six, her mother leaving her father for another man. During the rest of her childhood she shuttled back and forth between two households. At age fourteen, she had described herself as hopeless and a poor student.

Diana began purging the night before her marriage to Prince Charles, having discovered that her fiance was in love with another woman. During her marriage she felt no control over her life, it was a repeat of the pain and betrayal of her childhood.

In a 1995 BBC television interview Diana revealed to the world that she was a self-injurer. She said that she had cut her arms and legs, explaining, “You have so much pain inside yourself that you try and hurt yourself on the outside because you want help.” “Diana: Her True Story,” a biography written on the princess said that Diana had thrown herself into a glass cabinet at Kensington palace at various times, slashed her wrists with a razor, and cut herself with the serrated edge of a lemon slicer. Once, during a heated argument with Prince Charles, she picked up a penknife and cut her chest and thighs. Her husband still scorned her, and thought she was faking her problems, that it was melodramatic attention seeking. During a fight on an airplane, Diana locked herself in the bathroom, cut her arms, and smeared the blood over the cabin walls and seats. Another time she threw herself down the stairs.

Diana died on August 31, 1997 in an automobile accident with her boyfriend, Dodi Fayed, while trying to evade the paparazzi. She was a courageous women, and gave further prominence to the problem of self-injury.

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16. Sid Vicious

Soundtrack | The Astronaut's Wife

Along with fellow Sex Pistol member, Johnny Rotten, lanky, sneering, pock faced Sid epitomised the punk movement born in the mid 1970s in working class England. Sid Vicious (real name John Beverly) wasn't an original member of the Pistols, but rather joined the band after original bassist, Glen ...

By 1975 he had begun to self-injure. Sid later boasted that his body was covered in scars from self-inflicted cuts. It is also believed that around 1975 he also strangled a cat and assaulted a pensioner. Morris said of a meeting at McLaren’s office after a tour, “Sid walked in with this knife stuck in his leg. We said ‘Sid, you’ve got a knife in your leg’. He said ‘uh, have I?’ and pulled it out. He was so doped up all the time, especially on heroin, he never felt it.”

Sid had a relationship with a very troubled woman, Nancy Spungen, who was the person who introduced him to heroin. She had abused drugs and had attempted suicide multiple times over the years. Their relationship has been described as codependent. Morris said, “When they were together he was like a kitten, but without her he would go crazy.”

On tour in the USA in 1978 Sid was without Nancy and was increasingly agitated. Morris said, “[Sid] was erratic. No one knew why. It seemed he missed Nancy. Sometimes he wouldn’t eat at all. He’d drink heavy and take lots of drugs.” He self-injured on stage by slashing his chest and engaged in acts of violence on stage.

On October 12, 1978 Sid Vicious’s girlfriend, Nancy Spungen, was found dead in their room in a hotel in New York City. Sid had supposedly stabbed her to death. Ten days later Sid attempted suicide by repeatedly slashing his forearm with a knife and screaming, “I want to join Nancy, I didn’t keep my part of the bargain,” according to author Malcom Butt.

Sid died on February 2, 1979 of a heroin (which he obtained from his mother at a party because she feared he would be arrested buying drugs on the street) overdose while out on bail.

17. Nancy Spungen

Actress | Who Killed Bambi?

Nancy was born to a well to do Jewish family in Philadelphia. She was a hyperactive child, reportedly throwing suicidal cursing fits at the age of eight and abusing heroin by 15. At 19 she became a groupie, following such bands as Aerosmith, Bad Company, and The Ramones. She moved with a friend to ...

Nancy Spungen was the girlfriend of Sex Pistols bassist Sid Vicious and a figure of the 1970s punk rock scene. Spungen's life, and her death, have been the subject of controversy among music historians and fans of the Sex Pistols.

Spungen was a temperamental child who exhibited violent behavior toward her younger sister, Susan, but was very caring towards her younger brother, David. She allegedly threatened to kill a babysitter with scissors and attempted to batter her psychiatrist, who accused her of "acting out" for attention. At age 11, she was expelled from public schooling when she was absent from class more than two weeks. Her parents, weary of her erratic behavior, enrolled her at Devereux Glenholme School, CT and Devereux Manor High School, PA. In January 1972, she ran away from Devereux Manor and attempted suicide by slitting her wrists with scissors. When Spungen was 15, her psychiatrist diagnosed her with schizophrenia.

After being expelled from college, she went to London at the height of the punk rock craze and became involved with Sid Vicious. Their relationship was punctuated by bouts of domestic violence and drug abuse. The press soon labelled Spungen "Nauseating Nancy" for her shocking behavior. After the Sex Pistols disbanded, the couple moved to New York City and checked into the Hotel Chelsea where they spent their days consuming drugs.

In October 1978, Spungen was found dead in the bathroom of the couple's room, of a single stab wound to the abdomen. Sid Vicious was charged with her murder but died of a heroin overdose while on bail in February 1979, before the case went to trial. Various authors and filmmakers have speculated about Vicious' role in Spungen's death and the possibility that Spungen was killed by a drug dealer who frequented their room.

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18. Russell Brand

Actor | Arthur

Russell Brand was born on June 4, 1975, in Grays, Essex, England, the son of Barbara Elizabeth (Nichols) and Ronald Henry Brand, a photographer. An only child, his parents divorced when he was only six months old, and he was subsequently raised by his mother. Enduring a difficult childhood that saw...

The English comedian and actor opened up about self-injury in his memoir, “My Booky Wook: A Memoir of Sex, Drugs, and Stand-Up.” He revealed that he had self-injured as a teen, saying, “I get fixated when I’m bleeding – I can see why they went in for blood-letting in the medieval times because it makes you feel a bit better. When I cut myself, the drama of it calms me down.”

In 1995 when he was at the Drama Centre London he was expelled in his last term of his final year for smashing a glass over his head and lacerating his chest and arms with it after his performance was criticized.

In a “Time Out Chicago” interview after being asked if he’s ever been diagnosed with a mental illness Russell said, “Yes, depression and manic depression and, more latterly, bipolar. Attention-deficit disorder, hyperactivity. It’s difficult to know which of those diagnoses are correct because most of the time I was very young and on drugs.”

Russell is a former heroin and sex addict and a recovering alcoholic. He also struggled with bulimia as a teen. He’s shown an interest in the Hare Krishna movement and chanting the Hare Krishna mantra is part of his recovery from drug addiction.

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19. Troian Bellisario

Actress | Pretty Little Liars

Troian Bellisario, daughter of producers Donald P. Bellisario and Deborah Pratt, made her film debut at the age of 3 in Last Rites (1988). She made several TV and movie appearances in her teens (most of the TV appearances were in shows produced by her father) before attending the University of ...

Bellisario revealed in early January 2014 that she went through personal problems through high school, resulting in an eating disorder and self-harming problems. "I was the youngest daughter, the perfect little girl," she said. "My school was a very intense college prep school. So it was about wanting to please my father and mother and wanting to be perfect to everybody."

'I felt this sadness, and I thought if people really knew what was going on inside me, they wouldn’t want to hang out with me. So I tried to keep it light and funny. I became imprisoned [by my eating disorder and self-harm]. I would go days without eating. Or maybe I'd have some fruit and then go to the gym for three hours.'

That self-destructive behaviour continued until her friends stepped in, staging an intervention that changed the course of her life.

They got a hold of my journal and basically said, "We don’t trust you, and we’re gonna tell your parents." That was when my world kind of exploded,' she admits. 'It was kind of like an intervention. It made me ask myself, "What do I really want to be doing? What would make me happy?"'

'I knew I had a problem... It was a gradual process but I changed myself.'

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20. Jacoby Shaddix

Soundtrack | Pay It Forward

Born on July 28, 1976 as Jacoby Dakota Shaddix he has three sons Makaile, Jagger, and Brixton. Makaile Cielo Shaddix born March 24, 2002 at 3:34 am making him 11 almost 12 years old. Jagger Monroe Shaddix born September 13, 2004 making him 9 years old. Brixton Gabriel Shaddix born September 17, ...

Known for his role of lead singer of the band, Papa Roach, Jacoby Shaddix has admittedly self-injured. In an MTV article he says of the song, Scars, “Some of our fans hear that song and say, ‘I had to give it a few listens, dude. But I love it,’ It’s a P-Roach anthem. It has heart. It’s just undeniable. It stems from a good night in Vegas turned bad. I ended up in the hospital with 11 staples in my head, self-mutilation. It was just a really bad night. It’s about trying to help someone who really doesn’t want you to help them.” In an Examiner.com article he says of the time around Papa Roach’s third album, Lovehatetragedy, “I hated myself when I made that record. It was a really f’d up period in my life.” The article states he was self-destructive and suicidal. Shaddix also has a history of drug and alcohol abuse. In an August 2012 Rolling Stone article he is said to have struggled with suicidal depression after the near-dissolution of his 15-year marriage while working on the Papa Roach’s latest album, The Connection, but is now clean and sober and working things out with his wife.

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21. Vincent van Gogh

Writer | Vincent Van Gogh - Der Weg nach Courrières

Vincent Willem van Gogh was born on March 30, 1853, in Zundert, Netherlands. His father, named Theodorus van Gogh, was a Protestant minister. His mother, named Anna Cornelia Carbentus, was a daughter of the "book-binder to the King" Willem Carbentus; who had bound the first Consitution of Holland. ...

The Dutch post-Impressionist painter still famous so many years later for his work suffered from what has been thought of as epileptic attacks or bipolar disorder or a variety of other potential diseases. It is still a topic of speculation amongst historians. What is known is that he suffered intense anxiety and mental health issues.

van Gogh’s famous act of self-harm was the severing of his left ear (it is unknown to what degree) with a razor, which led to severe hemorrhaging. He was said to have bandaged his wound and then sent the severed ear to a brothel he and a friend he’d had a falling out with, Gauguin, frequented. A local newspaper reported that van Gogh left the ear in the care of a prostitute and told her to guard the ear carefully. Gauguin had a different account which was that van Gogh left he ear in the car of a doorman to as a memento for Gauguin.

van Gogh died at age thirty-seven from a gunshot wound that most people feel was self-inflicted though there was no gun found on him.

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22. Shirley Manson

Actress | Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles

Shirley Manson was born on August 26, 1966 in Edinburgh, Scotland as Shirley Anne Manson. She is an actress, known for Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles (2008), The World is Not Enough (1999) and Remember Me (2010). She has been married to Billy Bush since May 2010. She was previously married...

Shirley Manson, singer of Garbage, was an angry child. She was teased, tormented, and even beaten-up by her classmates because of her looks. Classmates called her names such as “posh,” “bloodhound,” and “frog-eyed” because of her red hair and green eyes. As she grew older she became unhappy and violent, and planned to drop out of high school when she turned sixteen. Shirley took up smoking, boys and drinking, she began using drugs on a regular basis during her late teens. "I couldn’t imagine being capable of doing anything. I certainly never thought I could be in a band. This was a dream it didn’t even occur to me to dream about.”

Shirley Manson has a low self-esteem and hates the way she looks. In a 1998 Select interview she said, “I feel disgusting. I could take a knife to my throat for the way I look. Can someone just put a bin or a bag or a bomb on my head?” As a teenager her feelings of weakness and of being overwhelmed were manifested in cutting, she would snip the safety guards off Bic razors and would cut up her arms. When she was a teenager she used to carry a sharp object in the laces of her boots and would cut herself with it whenever she felt stressed, anxious or depressed; she hid the scars by wearing long pants and boots. She explained in a The Herald article the experience of self-injuring, “I wouldn’t say that cutting was pleasurable, but there is a sense of euphoria that follows cutting yourself. The quick pinch of pain and the sight of blood snaps you back to the surface and you start to appreciate being alive.”

Shirley Manson no longer self-injures but still feels the urge from time to time. In 1998 she almost relapsed during her European Tour, in which she felt homesick and tired of hearing the males in her group talk about women. She told The Herald about her near relapse, “I ran to my dressing room in a flood of tears. I hated myself all over again for not being thin enough or having a perfect body. It hurt so much that suddenly cutting started to make sense again.” She took a penknife and was about to cut herself when a fellow band member walked in.

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23. Kelly Holmes

Actress | Road to Rio (BBC News)

Kelly Holmes was born on April 19, 1970 in Pembury, Kent, England. She is an actress, known for Road to Rio (BBC News) (2016), Superstars (2008) and Commonwealth Games (1954).

Kelly Holmes, an English athlete most known for her winning gold medals in the 800 meters and 1500 meters in the 2004 Summer Olympics, was born on April 19, 1970.

Holmes trained in 2003 for the 2004 Summer Olympics at a French training camp and suffered several leg injuries. Falling deep into depression, she began cutting her wrists and chest over a two-month period. In a News of the World newspaper interview she stated, “I made one cut for every day that I had been injured.” About her depression she said, “I thought I was cursed. It’s the lowest I’ve ever, ever been.” During this time period she had also considered suicide at least once and later sought help from a doctor, who diagnosed her with clinical depression. Anti-depressants would affect her performance so she used herbal serotonin tablets.

In the British Sunday newspaper she told of her first self-injurious experience, “I’d locked myself in the bathroom and turned on the taps so nobody could hear me crying. That’s when I saw a pair of scissors. I picked them up, opened them and started to cut my left arm. I made one cut for every day I’d been injured. With each one I felt I was punishing myself but at the same time I felt a sense of release that drove me to do it again and again. I knew deep inside that I wouldn’t go any further. The whole episode was nothing more than a cry of despair.”

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24. Alfred Kinsey

Alfred Kinsey was born on June 23, 1894 in Hoboken, New Jersey, USA as Alfred Charles Kinsey. He was married to Clara Bracken McMillen. He died on August 25, 1956 in Bloomington, Indiana, USA.

Alfred Charles Kinsey, most known for being the author of the first mass scientific survey of human sexual behavior in the United States, was born on June 23, 1894. He was the son of Alfred S. Kinsey, an engineering instructor at Stevens Institute of Technology. Kinsey - the son - went to Bowdoin College and graduated as a Bachelor of Science in 1916. Kinsey was an instructor in biology and zoology at Harvard, while working to get the Doctor of Science degree there. Beginning in 1920 became a specialist in plant and insect life and worked as an assistant professor in Indiana, later becoming a full professor of zoology in 1929. In 1942 he set up the Institute for Sex Research, Inc. with the help of Rockefeller Foundation funds. He began his famous statistical study of human sexual behavior in men and women in the United States.

Kinsey was a sadomasochist and many people throw the word homosexual around when it comes to him, though not relevant when it comes to his deviancy from “normal” sexual practices. It’s been said that he pushed his wife and fellow researchers a the Kinsey Institute into different types of sexual deviancy, which he filmed. He would compulsively try every type of sexual deviancy which he found.

He had engaged in compulsive genital self-injury, including self-circumcision. His fellow researchers and his biographers say that he had been self-injuring for years because of his sexual deviancy that had led him into all sorts of bizarre sex practices.

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25. Paris Jackson

Actress | Gringo

Paris Jackson was born on April 3, 1998 in Los Angeles, California, USA as Paris-Michael Katherine Jackson. She is an actress, known for Gringo (2018), The Space Between and Scream: The TV Series (2015).

Paris Michael Katherine Jackson was born on April 3, 1998, in Beverly Hills, California. She is the second child and only daughter of the late pop legend Michael Jackson. Paris's biological mother is Debbie Rowe, an ex-wife of Michael Jackson.

On June 25, 2009, Paris's father, Michael Jackson, suffered cardiac arrest at his Los Angeles home, and died shortly after being transported to a nearby hospital. At the time of her father's death, Paris was 11 years old. As dictated by her father's will, Paris and her brothers came under the legal care of their grandmother, Katherine Jackson.

In February 2010, an official coroner's report on Michael Jackson's death was released, revealing that the singer had died from acute propofol intoxication. Aided by his personal physician, Dr. Conrad Murray, Michael had used the drug, among others, to help him sleep. A police investigation revealed later that Murray hadn't been licensed to prescribe most controlled medications in California, and the doctor's actions as Michael's caretaker were subsequently further scrutinized. Murray was found guilty of homicide on November 7, 2011, receiving a four-year prison sentence.

After Michael's death Paris spiralled into depression and was admitted to the UCLA medical centre hospital after cutting her wrists and taking an overdose of pills on 5 June 2013. Paris Jackson was seen with worrying self-harm scars on her arms just a matter of weeks before she attempted to take her own life.

By 2015, Paris Jackson appeared to be in a much better place in her life. She is dating Chester Castellaw. The pair walked the red carpet together at a theater event in Los Angeles that May.

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26. Ashton Irwin

Soundtrack | Todd's Pop Song Reviews

Ashton Irwin is an actor, known for Todd's Pop Song Reviews (2009), 2014 Billboard Music Awards (2014) and One Hit Wonderland (2012).

Ashton Fletcher Irwin (born July 7, 1994), is the drummer and vocalist of 5 Seconds of Summer. He was raised with a sister named Lauren and a brother named Harry. His mother, Anne Marie, separated from his father. He had a troubled childhood, and because of that, he can relate to issues caused by bullying and low self-esteem.

Ashton has a dark past that included cutting his wrists. He has since stopped the cutting, much to his fans relief, and wears many bracelets to hide the scars. He now draws butterflies on the scars of his fans to show them they are beautiful.

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27. Brody Dalle

Soundtrack | Fantastic Four

Brody Dalle was born on January 1, 1979 in Melbourne, Australia. She has been married to Josh Homme since 2007. They have three children. She was previously married to Tim Armstrong.

Australian Brody Dalle, frontwoman of the Southern Californian punk-pop band The Distillers, was born in Fitzroy, Melbourne Australia on January 1, 1979. She is a woman both loathed and loved by those on the punk scene and is known for her powerful voice that has been likened to screaming.

As a teenager Brody used to write poetry about darker subjects, including rape and rage. Her biological father was kicked out of the home for physical abuse when she was a young girl and the man who her mother married helped aid in her feeling like an outsider in her own home. Frequent fights with her mother increased the feelings of alienation. She also felt like an outside at school. At age 15 her mother sent her to an all-girls Catholic school to try to get her to conform, basically to tame her, but it did not work well. ‘For some reason my mom decided to send me there ‘cause I was a young, wild, promiscuous teenager. [It was] pretty horrifying for me. I’m pro-choice and I was in Catholic schools where I couldn’t debate about that. It wasn’t acceptable ‘cause we were ‘children of God.’ It was b*llsh*t Brody said in a SF Weekly article, “Around 13, I started getting really angry and hating my mom–I mean, really hating my mom. She hated me too. We ended up strangling each other in the kitchen. I was always an angry kid, so I started running away and doing [angry] teenage girl stuff–cutting myself, getting high, not going to school.”

In the mid-’90s Brody started with a band, Sourpuss. She met her ex-husband, Tim Armstrong, during a gig at Australia’s Somersault Festival. In 1997 she moved to Los Angeles with her husband and started The Distillers. They released their self-titled debut album. When their next album Sing Sing Death House was released Brody had found her voice and the music itself was raw and powerful. Social issues of all kinds were covered in the songs, including some of the personal issues she has dealt with in the past.

Brody talks about her childhood best friend in one of her songs. In LA Weekly she says, ‘Gerti wasn’t anorexic or bulimic, and she wasn’t addicted to drugs, but she cut. Yeah, she cut herself. I’ve known girls who are anorexic, too. Someone real close to me now is anorexic, and it’s just thrown her family into hell. It’s so scary, so sad that some women feel that they have to starve themselves, and this woman I know, she knows she has a problem and she just can’t stop. I see these girls, they’re 14 years old, taller than me and weigh half what I weigh.”

Brody tries to reach out to kids who are going through rough times, kids in need. While she has some themes of self-destruction in her music she no longer cuts herself.

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28. Alexi Laiho

Soundtrack | Kohtalon kirja

Alexi Laiho was born on April 8, 1979 in Espoo, Finland as Markku Uula Aleksi Laiho.

Alexi Laiho, the vocals and lead guitarist for the melodic death metal band Children of Bodom has stated before in interviews that he used to cut himself and has dealt with other means of self-harm since then such as alcoholism.

In a interview he was asked about the name of his album Blooddrunk. He stated, “The song ‘Blooddrunk’, for example, is about when you’re addicted to spill around blood. It’s not necessarily just about cutting yourself but about other things you do to yourself and you don’t know why. I don’t do that anymore but I used to cut myself, you know? But it’s also in other ways, like within the last two years I have hurt myself more than ever and I figured that I have some addiction to hurt myself so bad. I think the whole topic of that song revolves around self-destruction, and just somewhat being addicted to hurting yourself. That’s what it’s about”

Alexi states that he had been depressed from the age of ten and that that while his childhood was “ok” by the time he was seventeen or eighteen he was cutting himself and dealing with serious suicidal ideation. “I genuinely wished I was dead. For example, when I was in the car, I would wish that I’d crash and die. One time - and I guess it could have been a cry-for-help suicide attempt - I popped a load of pills and drank a bottle of whiskey. Obviously I didn’t die but I was taken to a psychiatric hospital and had my stomach pumped. At least I guess so. I don’t really remember that much because I was so out of it, so heavily sedated.”

“I used to cut myself and I was aware of what I was doing. I don’t do that anymore but I did used to do that when I was 17 and 18. But now, looking back, it looks like the stupidest thing ever, but back in the day I just didn’t care. I mean if I’d have cut a tendon I wouldn’t be sitting here now because I wouldn’t be able to play guitar, or if I had hit a vein …” While Alexi may no longer cut himself he still battles self-destructive demons.

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29. Elizabeth Wurtzel

Writer | Prozac Nation

Elizabeth Wurtzel was born on July 31, 1967 in New York City, New York, USA as Elizabeth Lee Wurtzel. She has been married to James Freed Jr. since May 9, 2015.

Elizabeth Wurtzel, author of “Prozac Nation” and “Bitch,” was born on July 31, 1967, in the middle of the Summer of Love. Her parents divorced before she turned two, and her father would sleep through all her visits. Her mother was over-protective and usually unemployed. She describes herself as being a “golden girl” until she turned eleven, a time when she first broke down.

“When I was ten or eleven, I really cracked up, started hiding in the locker room at school, crying for hours, or walking around the corridors saying, Everything is plastic, we’re all gonna die anyway, so why does anything matter? I’d read this phrase in a picture of some graffiti in a magazine article about punk rock, which I decided was definitely a great invention. When I stopped talking, stopped eating, stopped going to school, and started spending my time cutting my legs up with razor blades while listening to dumb rock music like Foreigner on a little Panasonic tape recorder, my parents agreed I needed psychiatric help. To make a very long and complicated story short, my mom found a therapist for me, my dad didn’t like him and kept trying to sneak me off to others, I never got terribly effective treatment, my father refused to file an insurance claim for the psychiatrist I was seeing, and the whole scenario concluded with me as messed up as ever, but with all the adults involved suing one another. My mom sued my dad for unpaid alimony and child support, my psychiatrist sued my dad for unpaid bills, and after years of lawyers everywhere, my father finally fled to Florida when I was fourteen years old and did not turn up in my life again until my freshman year at Harvard.”

Elizabeth was clinically depressed. During her college years she had a series of breakdowns and drug abuse. Finally, she attempted to kill herself in her psychiatrist’s bathroom and ended up in a psychiatric hospital. She began taking Prozac, one of the first individuals to take Prozac. She told how it helped her, “Something just kind of changed in me…I became all right, safe in my own skin…One morning I woke up, and I really did want to live…The black wave, for the most part, is gone. On a good day, I don’t even think about it any more.”

Elizabeth wrote a memoir of her struggles with depression, “Prozac Nation,” and a book that describes the history of manipulative female behavior, “Bitch: In Praise of Difficult Women.” She has written articles and for various newspapers and magazines. In 2000 she revealed that she had become addicted to Ritalin and cocaine during the years after “Prozac Nation,” but had checked herself into a clinic where she became clean. In a Daily Telegraph article she said that she is no longer depressed but still has some anxieties.

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30. Amy Studt

Soundtrack | Assassin

Amy Jane Studt (born 22 March 1986) is an English singer, songwriter and musician. Growing up in a musical family, with her father a violinist and conductor who had toured with Roy Orbison, and her mother a pianist. Studt began writing music at the age of 6, teaching herself piano, guitar, and oboe...

Amy Studt, singer, is from Bournemouto, England and was born in London on the 22nd of March, 1986.

Amy was bullied at school from an early age on before she became famous. In Bliss magazine she said, “When I was about 13, I was constantly bullied at my boarding school in Bournemouth. Girls would shout awful abuse at me in my dorm - to the point where I’d be curled up in a corner, sobbing. They’d call me a `sad loner’ or `anorexic smurf’. I didn’t have an eating problem, but I’m naturally skinny, and they knew I was sensitive about it. The abuse got me really depressed.” The depression led to Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Amy was unable to concentrate on her schoolwork. Classmates and others, including teachers, though she was lazy. The stress caused headaches because of brain swelling and it took several months to diagnose. Even before that Amy had been unlucky. She had developed osteomyelitis, a bone disease that led her to be bedridden, at the age of twelve.

The bullying in her early teens led her to self-injure. Here is what she said about what happened:

"The stress of the situation made me so ill i was stuck in a bed for days - but the abuse didn’t stop. One time the bullies crept in to flick me with cold baked beans. I remember the day when the name-calling just got too much - I walked into the toilet, grabbed a pair of scissors and cut myself. I just wanted to replace one kind of pain with another - and i thought physical pain would be much easier to deal with. When I cut myself there was something to show for the hurt I was feeling. From then on I always cut myself when they started on me.

No-one knew about the cuts. I wore big jumpers all the time to cover my arms. I was devastated when my brother found out. One day we were putting up a birthday poster on a notice board and my sleeve slipped down revealing my scars. He grabbed my arm and said “what the smurf is that?” It was horrible, and I wouldn’t talk about it.

My brother told my parents and close friends, but everyone just skirted round the subject. I hated the fact that people tip-toed around me, I kept thinking `just talk to me about it’ but I guess it was really tough for everyone. I was embarrassed too, because, let’s face it, people think you’re completely loopy if you’re cutting yourself.

I self harmed for two years in total, even after moving schools and getting away from the bullies. I was feeling much happier but it was my boyfriend who eventually helped me stop. He could see from the scars what I was doing and one day he said `if you’re doing it then I’m doing it as well’ I did it one last time and he did it too. I was so appalled i didn’t do it again. I know now that self-harming is pointless and doesn’t help. If you’re being bullied, go and talk to someone you trust. Don’t self harm because its not worth it. Chat to someone because if you keep it to yourself it just gets worse. Believe me… I know.”

Amy is no longer bullied and her fame has caused past classmates to reconsider their view of her. Sincere or not they may be but she is no longer an outcast. She has overcome her self-destructive behavior and has become successful. Her songs, including “Just a Little Girl,” got good radio play at the time of their release. The circumstances that led to her self-injurious behavior have been lifted.

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31. Richey Edwards

Soundtrack | Twin Town

Richey Edwards was born as Richard James Edwards. He died on February 1, 1995 in London, England.

Richey James Edwards, a musician who was the celebrity most up front with his self-injurious behavior, was born on December 22, 1967. He grew up under his grandmother’s care in Blackwood until he was thirteen because his parents could not afford to take care of him. He joined the band, “The Manic Street Preachers,” after they had funded their first single, “Suicide Alley.”

While in the band Richey suffered from deepening alcoholism and anorexia, he also went through long bouts of depression and insomnia, and self-injury. He had suffered from self-injury since he was a teenager. On May 15, 1991 Richey carved “4 Real” on his forearm with a razor blade. The wound required seventeen stitches, and was done while Richey was involved in a discussion with an NME Live Reviews Editor at the Time. The next day he called and apologized and explained his behavior, “I tried talking to Steve for an hour to explain ourselves [The Manic Street Preachers]…I didn’t abuse him or insult him. I just cut myself. To show that we are no gimmick, that we are pissed off. That we are for real.” By the end of 1993 he had started stubbing cigarettes out on his arm and was drinking heavily. Also, at an April 1994 concert in Bangkok, Thailand, he appeared with his chest slashed open by knives a fan had sent him. In July of 1994, after having been missing for forty-eight hours and drinking and self-injuring during this time, Richey entered a rehabilitation clinic and stayed ten weeks.

On February 1, 1995 leaves the Embassy Hotel he was staying at, stopped at his Cardiff apartment, and disappeared, leaving behind his passport and credit cards. He was reported missing and his abandoned car was found on the Severn Bridge, a place notorious for suicides. Police presumed he was dead by the time summer came around. People still wonder if Richey is still alive and occasionally there are “sightings” of him.

“When I cut myself I feel so much better. All the little things that might have been annoying me suddenly seem so trivial because I’m concentrating on the pain. I’m not a person who can scream and shout so this is my only outlet. It’s all done very logically.” (Siamese Animal Men - NME)

“It’s about people who take their frustration out on everyone around them. I never raise my voice. Cutting myself or hurting myself is the way I deal with anger.” (‘Manic Frustration’ - Kerrang!)

“I think it’s quite common. It’s on the increase. It’s all about self-discipline. Like, self-obsession is connected completely with self-loathing, and it’s the same with, um, if you’ve got a weight problem. It’s all about… finding some worth in yourself, knowing that you’ve got the discipline to do it, and knowing that other people maybe can’t do it. And it’s also, I think, really connected to the fact that you almost feel, like, silent, you have no voice, you’re mute, there’s just no, you’ve got no option’ Even if you could express yourself nobody would listen anyway’ Things that go on inside you, there’s no other way to get rid of them.

I mean, I’ve been in clinics where there’s been lots of people who’ve cut themselves and abused themselves, physically and violently. It’s pretty common, it’s clichéd amongst people who do it that when they do it they don’t actually feel any pain. You know, even when you’re maybe having stitches in your body and things have been done to you, it doesn’t matter. You’re in a frame of mind where it really does not hurt.

You know, maybe a few days later you get a certain amount of pain as the skin starts to heal, but when you’re in that frame of mind it’s really natural. It’s the only logical thing to do. Otherwise you feel you could almost do something to another person, and that is something that I would - again, like I said, I would never ever take it out on somebody else. Maybe the things I do, it’s more concerned with the fact that I don’t like myself very much, and so I would not expect anyone else to judge me that highly; so if I discipline myself I can feel relatively content with my mental state and my physical state. If I can balance those two then I feel OK, and I’m not really worried what people think about me. Because I judge myself harsher, and on more strict terms, than they ever could probably. I - I think. Mm.” (Villa 65 - Dutch Radio)

“Self abuse is anti-social, aggression still natural.” (Melody Maker)

“I eat and I dress and I wash and I still can say thank you Puking - shaking - sinking I still stand for old ladies Can’t shout, can’t scream, hurt myself to get pain out” (Manic Street Preachers, ‘Yes’)

“Roses in the hospital Stub cigarettes out on my arm Roses in the hospital Want to feel something of value Roses in the hospital Nothing really makes me happy Roses in the hospital Heroin is just too trendy

Roses in the hospital Try to pull my finger nails out Roses in the hospital I want to cling to something soft Roses in the hospital Progressing like a constant war Roses in the hospital There’s no one to feel ashamed for )Manic Street Preachers, ‘Roses in the Hospital’)

“It’s about people who hurt themselves in order to concentrate, or just to feel something.” (explanation of the song, ‘Roses In The Hospital’)

“Scratch my leg with a rusty nail, sadly it heals.” (Manic Street Preachers, ‘Die in the Summertime’)

“Get some pain and I feel alive - born to end Close my eyes overdose on hell - born to end Get run over by no direction - born to end Breathing dead and I’m born to end - born to end (Manic Street Preachers, ‘Born To End’)

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32. Lynsey Pow

Actress | Waterloo Road

Lynsey spent most of her childhood in Scotland before living her teenage years in Somerset, London and Manchester. She then went on to train at Birmingham school of speech and drama hence her ability to do a strong range of accents! Lynsey is now based in London having recently finished a ...

An inquest into the death of Lynsey Pow has revealed the Waterloo Road and Doctors actress was struggling with drug and gambling problems. Pow's body was discovered on 28th November 2013, she was aged just 34.

Pow's body was discovered last year by her husband after he received a phone call from his wife in which she reportedly apologised for racking up debts. Her husband returned home to their flat in South East London but discovered his wife hanging and surrounded by drug paraphernalia, as the Mail reports.

An inquest, conducted at Southwark Coroner's Court, gave Pow's cause of death as a 'drug related self-harm death'.

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33. Lindsay Lohan

Actress | The Parent Trap

Lindsay Dee Lohan was born in New York City, on 2 July 1986, to Dina Lohan and Michael Lohan. She began her career at age three as a Ford model, and also made appearances in over sixty television commercials, including spots for The Gap, Pizza Hut, Wendy's, and Jell-O (opposite Bill Cosby). Lohan ...

Lohan, who has suffered from asthma since the age of two, is also a smoker.

Lohan's parents have a turbulent history. They married in 1985, separated when she was three, and later reunited.They separated again in 2005 and finalized their divorce in 2007.

Her mother Dina Lohan admitted Lindsay's cutting herself.

Lindsay Lohan has come clean on rumors about her incredibly shrinking body, admitting that her low body weight was due to bulimia. She also tells that she has experimented with drugs in the past.

“I was sick. Everyone was scared. And I was scared too. I had people sit me down and say, ‘You’re going to die if you don’t take care of yourself.'”

In 2006, Lohan attended Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. In May 2007, she was arrested on a charge of driving under the influence of alcohol (DUI.) Lohan entered the Promises Treatment Center rehabilitation facility where she stayed for 45 days. In July, less than two weeks out of rehab, Lohan was arrested a second time on charges of possession of cocaine, driving under the influence and driving with a suspended license. In August Lohan pleaded guilty to misdemeanor cocaine use and driving under the influence and was sentenced to an alcohol education program, community service, one day in jail, and was given three years probation. Lohan released a statement in which she said "it is clear to me that my life has become completely unmanageable because I am addicted to alcohol and drugs." The same month she entered the Cirque Lodge Treatment Center in Sundance, Utah for a third stint at rehabilitation, staying for three months until discharge in October. In October 2009 Lohan's DUI probation was extended by an additional year, following several instances in which she failed to attend the court-ordered substance abuse treatment classes. Between 2010 and 2013, Lohan went into rehabilitation three times, and spent much of her time entangled in legal problems stemming from misdemeanors and probation violations.

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34. Iggy Pop

Soundtrack | Coffee and Cigarettes

Legendary Rock 'n' Roll wildman and substance abuser. Recorded a series of classic rock albums with The Stooges and later as a solo artist. Worked extensively with David Bowie.

Iggy Pop is famous for bleeding on stage. The first time he cut himself was by accident when he fell on a drink glass. The crowd went nuts, so he made the blood part of his show. He was addicted to heroin for much of the '70s. Iggy Pop had acquired a taste for harder drugs, often ingesting copious amounts of heroin and cocaine before concerts. Adorned in glitter, baby oil, and silver paint, he behaved bizarrely on stage, routinely cutting himself, spitting and vomiting on the audience and goading spectators into assaulting him.

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35. Owen Wilson

Actor | The Royal Tenenbaums

Self-proclaimed troublemaker Owen Cunningham Wilson was born in Dallas, to Irish-American parents originally from Massachusetts. He grew up in Texas with his mother, Laura (Cunningham), a photographer; his father, Robert Andrew Wilson, an ad exec; and his brothers, Andrew Wilson (the eldest) and ...

On August 26, 2007, Wilson was taken to St. John's Health Center after a suicide attempt. He was then transferred to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles. His lawyer confirmed that he had been undergoing treatment for depression. Wilson has several scars on his wrist from self-injury.

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36. Jessicka

Actress | Ellie Parker

Jessicka was born on October 23, 1975 in Fort Lauderdale, Florida, USA as Jessica Fodera. She has been married to Christian Hejnal since October 13, 2007.

Jessicka Addams, a singer most known for her bands Jack off Jill and Scarling, was born on October 23, 1975. She grew up in Florida as an only child. As a three-year-old she was enrolled in a local Montessori school, there she did well in art and music. Fodera's mother later enrolled her in Horizon Elementary School's gifted program, where she excelled in theater, art, and creative writing. Fodera found the school's chorus group in middle school and found that she was as a good singer. She quickly became bored with the choir's stifling standards and, by the time she entered high school, Fodera was "immersed in music, Goth culture, gay iconography, and feminist literature". She would write the word *beep* on her knuckles. When she was seventeen she decided to start her own band.

Fodera's first few attempts at a band were a failure but by 1991 she had joined the first incarnation of Jack Off Jill. In 1992 the band began opening for Marilyn Manson and the Spooky Kids. Jack Off Jill, made up of four women, became one of the most controversial underground bands during their time. Fodera would perform shocking on-stage antics, such as covering the audience with spit and blood and candy covered razors. In 1993 Marilyn Manson and Fodera were charged with misdemeanors after a concert in Jacksonville, Florida. Fodera began cutting herself on stage, which earned her the tile of "Patron saint of self injury".

In 1997 Jack off Jill signed with Risk Records and created the full-length Sexless Demons and Scars to the mainstream public. While Jack Off Jill met with growing success Fodera began to question her commitment to the band. She and band mate, Robin Moulder, were disagreeing on where to take the band and her mentor, Marilyn Manson, were no longer speaking. She later made up with Manson and became part of the Marilyn Manson / Monster Magnet / Hole tour after Hole left the tour prematurely. Jack Off Jill released their second full-length album, Clear Hearts Grey Flowers in 1999. In 2000 Jack Off Jill officially disbanded.

In 2002 Scarling was formed and in April, 2004 Scarling released their debut album, Sweet Heart Dealer. Their second album, So Long, Scarecrow, was released on August 23, 2005. Jessika still continues to play and tour with Scarling.

On her website Fodera says of her self-injury when asked "Why do you cut yourself so much?": "The question might be why did I cut myself so much? I initially started cutting myself at an early age out of frustration. Cutting tends to relieve anger. Many self-injurers like myself have enormous amounts of rage within and are sometimes afraid to express it outwardly, we injure ourselves as a way of venting these feelings without hurting others. When intense feelings built, I became overwhelmed and unable to deal with it. By causing pain, I could reduce the level of emotional stress to a bearable one. As a teenager it was an escape from the numbness many of those who self-injure say they do it in order to feel something, to know that they're still alive. You obtain a certain feeling of euphoria. Continuing abusive patterns later in life became more force of habit an adrenal rush on stage rather then a cry for help."

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